Monday, November 7, 2016

Good morning, world!!

It is hard to believe that our weekend is over. It is actually kind of hard to believe we had a weekend! We did SOOOO MUCH stuff in the past 2 days.

I put out videos, we did a bunch house chores, ran some errands, and we packed a bunch of boxes. So many that I am concerned that we are going to be run out of the house because of just how many boxes we have taking up space! 😉

We have so much more packing to go, and my sister from Arizona is coming in in 10 days, so I have to have the majority of our packing done before then so I can feel free to play to my heart’s content while she is in town!!

I just can’t wait to move. I can’t wait for this whole process to be over, but I am thinking that this process is actually going to take us a few tedious months to get through. You see, moving to Portland is only one part of what we are doing. We then have to finish fixing up some minor details in the condo, and go through the process of selling it. I have never sold a home before, so I am not exactly sure what all that will entail!! All the while, I will have to keep working with our mortgage company, because we are still upside down in our condo, by about $20,000. Not my proudest moment, but there you go! I am hoping that my mortgage company will let us do a short-sale on it. My husband works in Portland, I just lost my job, and we can’t afford to keep it – it costs too much to live here, and there is no way we would be able to rent it out, without having to shell out a fortune more on miscellaneous costs that we would not be able to get covered in the amount we can rent it for. And, who am I kidding? I honestly, deep down to my toes, just don’t want to keep it, even if that means my credit is going to have to take a hit for it.

We haven’t been happy here since we first moved in.

When we did initially move in, I knew it was a mistake at the get go. It was the first time I really heard the message of “it is so important to follow your intuition, it will not lead you astray.” Well, I didn’t listen, and because of that, we have had 10 long years in a place where we have not been able to entertain friends or family because there is really no parking to speak of, we live on a busy street and have to deal with an HOA that really doesn’t know what it is doing, which means we have not really had much peace being here. It has been good for being a place in which I can hide from the world. Now that I say it out loud, I am not sure what took me so long to make the decision to move. Somehow I felt I was being irresponsible because the mortgage was not payed off yet, but really, our quality of life is suffering because it has never really felt like a home.

That is what I am longing for, a real, honest to goodness, home!

People do have those right?

It is not just some hooey that you see in movies, right???

That is what I want, a home. I think that is why my YouTube videos are starting to lean to home decorating, DIY projects, cooking, and entertaining, because that is what I want in my own life. I have a psychology friend who is always telling me, you become what you need in your own life. Yep, she is right. This is what I need. Someone who can show me how to turn my house into a home, a place of love, friendship, and daily creativity, and turn my existence into a life, and who better to do that for oneself than your own self!??

I just pray that my videos can, not only help me, but help someone out there who might be watching, who might be longing for a home of their own too. Then all of my efforts will definitely be worth it!!

I have so much more to do today, so I had better get on it!!

Here is to creating the future of my dreams,