Thursday, November 3, 2016

Good morning, world!

I am sitting in my living room, with my sweet Sophie girl already asleep by my side, her matronly age is starting to show. It is still early morning, and it is very quiet. My sweetie has already left for another day of hard, laborious, but gratifying work.

I can hear the ticking of a small clock on my living room wall, and a slow water drip from somewhere off in the distance. I live on a very busy street, so I hear the buzz of cars whirring by, but I am used to its steady rhythm. My world is very peaceful.  As I sit here, quietly looking out on my ever changing life, I am struck by just how incredibly thankful I am for my life.

You would think that with all of the changes going on, health, job loss, move to the big city on the horizon, and all in the middle of the holiday season. You would think that I would, or maybe should be, freaking out right about now, but there is something peaceful going on inside of me. I am just so thankful. Thankful for all of it. There isn’t any usual sign of fear, or dread, or panic, or worry, which that, in and of itself, is a new thing, especially with all of my years of anxiety tucked neatly under my belt, as if it were a badge to be worn with honor.

To put it simply, life is really good.

I am really blessed.

If you asked me how everything was going to unfold, I would have to honestly tell you that I have no idea, but I know that everything is just as it should be. I am on my path. That sounds so odd coming from me, I need to say it again. I am on my path. I am on MY path!

My ongoing daily mantra is:

I am following my true north, staying in gratitude, and am living to connect, create, and empower.

That can sometimes feel like a really difficult thing to live up to, but this morning it seems to flow out of me with ease. I think that is because I feel like I am FINALLY turning this Titanic of a ship, a ship that has been my life for so long, onto the course that I was meant to live on all along. I am not sure why I have resisted, and pushed back, and struggled against for so long. I know my course will not be easy, and heaven knows just HOW MUCH work I still have yet to do, but for the first time in my adult life, I feel like I can do it. I am going to make it. I am going to be okay.

This knowledge is HUGE.

I am going to be okay.

I am going to be okay.

I AM GOING TO BE OKAY!

This is music to my ears, and FINALLY I have let my soul hear it’s song!

(insert power pose here!)

I am going to be okay.

To anyone who might be reading this post today, my wish for you is that you will find yourself, quite soon, peacefully sitting on your sofa, in the quiet of the morning, hearing your soul, too, tell you, that you are going to be okay.

Here is to new adventures!