Monthly Archives: January 2010

Daily Update!

Well, it has been a very busy day!!! My sister-in-law, nephew, and niece all spent the night last  – it was like a great big slumber party!!! Thank you, sis, I really needed that!!! πŸ™‚

After taking them home this morning, I got to work extremely early, which is a huge feat for me!! Not only that, but I literally got THE BEST parking spot on the flat lot! WOW!!! Ok, so I was ready to go to my office, and that is when it happened! I took a terrible spill just as I was about to cross the street. I slipped and was literally covered in mud up oneside and down the other!!! I hurt myself something terrible, but all I could do was laugh and cry at the same time!!! I composed myself, picked up my belongings and managed to figure out how to get back into my car without getting mud on anything – thank goodness!! Drove myself home, and made it back to work at my regular time, and had to park on the 5th floor!!!! LOL! Oh, well, there is always tomorrow!!! πŸ˜‰

What else?? Well, work went by quickly! I am so thankful for my girlfriend Chris, she is my office mate and partner in crime. Sometime she can talk me down from dramatic ledge on most any day – and lately, I have really needed it!!! Today was our first day that we are getting back to walking – that is such a great energizer especially during a stressful work day!!

After work today, I took myself to the track and I officially started training for the Susan G Komen 3-Day 60 Mile walk, it was only 1 1/2 miles, but it is a start!!! So, here we go – there is no turning back now! I am excited to accomplish this goal, not just for my mother, but also for myself. I have not been the #1 on my priority list in a VERY LONG time.

Chores: dishes, laundry, vacuum, oh my! Get the mail, pay bills, and bathe my girls – and that about sums my day up! Not too exciting, but there you go.

Have a fabulous night, I will try to write again tomorrow. I figure it would get pretty lonely around here if it weren’t for this little computer that my sweetie bought me. He may never know how much I appreciate that gesture.
Christina πŸ˜‰


I have such a big week coming my way – I just pray that I am able to make it through all that I have to do this week!!! Life has been pretty crazy, but whose isn’t, right?

It is midnight right now – much later than I am used to staying up!! I am watching Joel Osteen on television right now – he is speaking about how the wind is shifting, and God has a new direction coming for my life. He says that I will come into opportunity that will boggle my mind, I really hope that is true!! I am in need of some favor and increase! My plan is to stay in faith, and to keep my eyes on Him so that I don’t let my personal troubles, cause me to stop following His lead. The events of the last 15 years has molded me into who I have become, so I am thankful for that, but I have to stop carrying my baggage from my past into the future that God is going to use to lift me up!!

Ok, so you know that my mom died in 1999 of breast cancer. Well, I have always talked about doing something in remembrance and in honor of her life. She left 5 girls behind, which I am the oldest of, and I have decided that this year will be the year that I do one of the scariest things I have ever thought about doing, in honor of her. I have decided to walk the Susan G. Komen 3-Day 60 Mile Breast Cancer Walk!! EEK!! I have 35 weeks to prep for that walk, and at the size that I am, I am going to need EVERY day of training to get ready for that big weekend!!! 2 of my sister-in-laws have agreed to do the walk with me – that is just soooo AWESOME!!! This year really is the year of big change!!! I know that I am highly favored!! I know that God will bring people into my life to help me get to the right place at the right time. This is my decade of favor, this is my decade of dream being met, this is my decade to go above and beyond where I am at now.

“Arise, shine…for the glory of the Lord is upon you.”

-Isaiah 60:1

Thank you, Lord, for Joel Osteen, and for having me turn on the television to exactly the right channel, at exactly the right time, during my time of need. Help me stay focused on You and Your will for my life! I pray for J, I know that he is struggling, trying to find himself, and his happiness, but Lord, I pray that he not only finds himself, but he finds You first and foremost. Thank you for my support system, those women that make my life full, and rich – I know that I am blessed greatly!! Stay with me tonight, as I take myself to bed for a few hours of sleep before work in the morning, and help me wake with a smile on my face, joy in my heart, and a song of praise on my lips. I know that You have taken care of us in the past, You take care of us now, and I KNOW that You will continue to take care of us in the future. Thank you so much for that!!! I am extremely grateful to You! I love You so much, and no matter what happens, I love my husband too, even if it has to be from afar.

In Jesus name,


Sometimes I feel there is a hole inside me… An emptiness that, at times, seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. And the moon tonight: there’s a circle around it — a sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole… Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don’t know… Maybe I’ve had my happiness. I don’t want to believe it, but there is no man… Only that moon.”

– Sally Owens, Practical Magic

40 Things

1. Where is your cell phone? sitting on my nightstand, charging
2. Your significant other? Jason, out looking for himself
3. Your hair? curly, unruly and in desperate need of a good trim
4. Your mother? my biggest fan, my teacher, my best friend
5. Your father? a funny, loving man, who takes great pleasure in sitting around in his shorts
6. Your favorite thing? waking up before dawn to a clean house, and heading downtown to walk around the shops
7. Your dream last night? too vague to remember, but it was definitely in color
8. Your favorite drink? currently it is warm cup of spicy Russian tea
9. Your dream/goal? Finding happiness
10. What room you are in? my bedroom
11. Your hobby? currently, it is reading
12. Your fear? I will never be able to hold on to any happiness that I find
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? I want to have a home, a family, and to be simply happy
14. Where were you last night? my sweetie and I were out with friends having a fun game night
16. Muffins? An indulgence – double chocolate muffin, heated, and paired with a glass of iced cold milk
17. Wish list item? an heirloom quality silver watch
18. Where you grew up? all over the west coast
19. Last thing you did? I watched Jane Austen’s Sense and Sensibility
20. What are you wearing? comfy sweats and t-shirt
21. Your TV? currently playing “Persuasion” in the background
22. Your pets? Faye and Sophie, my confidants
23. Friends? An essential part of life.
24. Your life? Unraveling a little at the seams
25. Your mood? Contemplative – wondering who am I? What is my purpose?
26. Missing some one? my sisters
27. Car? a must have necessity in this day and age
28. Something you’re not wearing? underclothes
29. Your favorite store? Ma Valis in Salem, OR
30. Your favorite color? apple green, although subject to change at a moments notice
31. favorite holiday? Christmas
32. Public school? one of the most difficult times of my life
33. When is the last time you laughed? last night, playing with my friends
34. Last time you cried? Wednesday evening
35. Who will resend this? no idea
36. One place that I go to over and over? The little coastal town of Lincoln City, OR
37. One person who emails me regularly? Alexa
38. My favorite place to eat? Marco Polo, the best Chinese/Italian/Gluten Free restaurant πŸ˜‰
39. Why you participated in this survey? I am spending the day alone
40. What are you doing tonight? I am bedridden, and watching Jane Austen movies with my girls

A New Chapter…

A very profound event is getting ready to change my entire life, and sometimes no matter how much planning, goal-setting, mind mapping, or visualizing that you do, there are just some things that you can not control in your life – you can only control how you react to those things.  If I had to be perfectly honest with myself, this has been an event that I have seen coming for a long time – 5 years to be exact; I have just been praying for a miracle to heal us, and make us better – miracles do still happen right?? I am not sure what my life will look like in the next few days, weeks, month, or even years, and I have to tell you that I am scared, overwhelmed, and already lonely for “the way things used to be”. I pray that I am not making the biggest mistake of our lives ; I can’t see any other options.

Please, if there is anyone out there reading this little blog, please pray for us – we really, really need it.
Thank you.

Happy New Year!!!

Yes, I realize that it is actually the 10th of the New Year, but I had accidentally “broken” my blog before Christmas, and have just managed to get it back up and running!!! YEAH!!! πŸ™‚

Anyway, this has been a pretty busy couple of weeks!!! I had two large certification tests that I had to take for work, and I passed them both – CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??? I was pleasantly surprised to get that result back! Whew!!!

I had a very nice Christmas with my family in Roseburg, and a fun New Year with my family in Salem!! I am waiting for life to get back to normal, but life really hasn’t been NORMAL for the last 3 years, since we’ve moved into the condo. If the good Lord is willing, I want to sell the condo and at least get into an inexpensive apartment so we can seriously save for an actual home!! We need a home, someplace that we can lay down some roots and start some of our own traditions. I think then and only then can things get back to “normal” – whatever that is!!!

Ok, so I am going to get ready for bed now, but I just want to be able to say thank you to my Sweetie!!! He helped me do some SERIOUS cleaning this weekend, and he wired the downstairs for music!! Oh, how our lives have missed music!!! AND I am sooo excited because music in our house leads to dancing!!! I LOVE DANCING WITH MY SWEETIE!!!

So, anyway!! I am off to bed! I look forward to hearing from you soon! (My comments should now work again!!!)

Good night!
-Christina πŸ˜‰